Well, i'm not particularly happy with revealing the utter madness that is my life and i'm tired of being poked and proded to spill the secrets of my past and my dismal (from where i stand) future.  But what the heck, what have i got to loose... nothing much (from where i stand). What have i got to gain... pretty much dito anyways.  

Who am i? Well let's say for now, my life started out with quite the social promise, however, it sudddenly went into hibernation and it's been there ever since.  It's not that i want to stay in hibernation... it's simply that i made my little cave so nice and comfy and filled with all the things... nix that... most of the things that make me happy that i'm not to confident to pop out of it and go checking out other cave-dwellers so to speak.  The main reason why i've been avoiding the other cave-dwellers... i've been conked on the head and the heart too many times to risk it happening again.

As for being a 30 year old virgin, well, i'm still 29 but the big 30 is fast approaching and all i can see up ahead are ticking clocks looming darkly in the distance.  If only i can get over D-Day (June 3rd).  Actually i've been focusing on the month of July instead. It's chock filled with all those lovely Harry Potter goodies to sated me.  See, this is what i do.. i divert to other things to occupy my time and thoughts and basically ignore the deeper issues that's me.  But doesn't everyone do that? Maybe some more than others but don't we all try to amputate the parts of our lives that are practically numb and lifeless? 

Maybe this is what i really need to exorcise my inner demons and fears.  Maybe i ned to spill.